i feel like poop

maybe i'm a sucky player
maybe i'm unfit
maybe i'm a fool for believing
believing in something that would never be

maybe i'm disappointed
hell i am.
i'm pissed frustrated and it jus downright sucks

so maybe my attendance was crap this year
but i did have a reason.

maybe i HOPED for a better outcome.

maybe i don't deserve it.

maybe.

i've never felt so shit in quite a while and it sucks to go through this ALL alone. no one else knows how it feels. no one ever would.

and no one even said A WORD to me.